IN MY HOUSE
In my house, one room looks onto another,
and another. In the last, my bedroom,
the window holds a chicken-wire fence,
a stutter of fresh leaves, the neighbor’s
corrugated metal roof.
Yesterday I wept there,
could not get beyond the bed covers.
I remembered a childhood game
in which my cousin and I
held tight to the edge of my mattress,
pretending there were sharks below,
waiting to nip off a finger, a toe.
The sharks are bigger now,
more plentiful, real.
Did you know that
I couldn’t find you in my house, Mama?
I searched for you, front door to chicken-wire fence;
you were not there.
Today, with the help of pills, or faith,
or love, or whatever, I got out of bed.
As a reward, treat (bribe), I bought myself flowers,
parrot tulips: great pink creatures with green stripes.
They bloom from an old spaghetti-sauce jar,
huge fleshy petals like curled hands slowly opening,
drawing me curious into their sexual parts,
the ones whose names I never learned. No matter.
I love the way flowers live so splendidly just before they die.
Cut from their roots, they open still. Right here in my house.
No one could stop them.
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